Current mood:	sleepy
Current music:	Meredith Brooks - Bitch

Wow so I'm cool. During school, every journal entry I made (in DJ I mean) was about how much homework I had and all the shit I had to put up with all the time. Now that school's out, all of my journal entries are about not getting enough money or hours or work or whatever.

It's like when something good happens, I like to just keep it in my head, or tell other people about it in person because it's fun that way. By the time I make it to my journal I'm tired of telling the story. But when bad things happen and I want to complain, I do it in my journal first because I know everyone gets annoyed by it. But then I'll probably still complain to people because I guess that's just the way I am.

I should be trying to sleep, considering the fact that I'm exhausted and I want to go shopping tomorrow morning before Lindsay's graduation party because I know I won't go otherwise, but Jenni is on and I miss her so.

Tonight was weird, but I guess I won't really get into that. I still don't know why I'm writing in here instead of my DJ. I'm feeling a little stream-of-conscious-y.

I'm excited for what September will bring. I'll be happy to leave here for a little while, and I don't really know what to expect. I don't imagine myself missing home; I've never had a problem with being away before. I find out all my housing / roommate information next month, and I wish it would just come already. Everyone is talking about where they're living and who they're rooming with and I'm just like "uhh..."

The rest of my family is going out of town tomorrow for a week, but I don't think anything big will go down here. My friends have been all over the place and I guess everyone is annoyed with one another and nobody really wants to hang out.

Speaking of going out of town, I'm going to St. Louis twice next month. Once with my family for like 3 days to see cubs / cardinals games, and then I go back later that week with Spencer and Grace because Grace wants to go to an Alkaline Trio show and see Washington University, and because Spencer is going to SLU, obviously. I'm just going along for the hell of it. And because I was invited.

andmaybetomorrow: oh
SmarterChild: Oh say can you see...
andmaybetomorrow: by the dawns early light
SmarterChild: What so proudly we hailed...
andmaybetomorrow: at the twilights last gleaming
SmarterChild: Whose broad stripes and bright stars...
andmaybetomorrow: through the perilous fight
SmarterChild: O'er the ramparts we watched...
andmaybetomorrow: were so galantly streaming
SmarterChild: And the rockets' red glare...
andmaybetomorrow: the bombs bursting in air
SmarterChild: Gave proof through the night...
andmaybetomorrow: that our flag was still there
SmarterChild: Oh say does that star-spangled banner yet wave...
andmaybetomorrow: o'er the land of the free
SmarterChild: And the home of the brave! That was great!


Sometimes I like robots better than I like people.


I feel so weird right now. I don't know what kind of mood I'm in. I'm feeling a little nostalgic but a little cynical, a little angry but a little mellow.

I saw Jason when I was out with my mom tonight; he was getting a hunting and fishing license. Hm. He taught me some stuff at work today, and it kept me off the floor which was cool. I mean I was glad I was on the floor instead of on register but there were no customers and I felt stupid walking around in circles not helping anyone.

I need to go grocery shopping for myself for this week. I need stuff to grill and just some whatever stuff. Any ideas? Mmmmm I'm excited to grill. Last year I ate hamburgers like four out of the seven days they were gone. I hope this year I have someone to eat them with me.



I have a feeling.